Dearest Pap;
Today is the very extraordinary date for you and for me. For you: Happy Birthday to you Pap!! Hope you enjoy this very special day wherever you are!! For me; finally I have able to pull together bits of my guts to pen down this little note for you.
It had been four long years since I gathered enough of this courage in order to drop this letter to your ends. At first I was terrified about the idea as I do not know if I am able to so…because I am so afraid that I will end up flooding my pillow and my bed instead. But I knew… I just got to do it now…
And all about my dad's...just keep on flashing on my mind…
Standing at almost 6ft tall, he always walks tall and never feels humiliated of his big-fat-belly.He used to joke that that's called a man's arrogance…
And we always laughed at him… because he looks so much like bearing another brother for us…
My dad was a neat person. He will always make sure his attire is well-dressed. And he will usually match with a belt and a pair of nicely ironed trouser...Thanks to my mum for that...
A short pant is only meant for inside the house.
And the hair is neatly comb to the back...
If he was in the house...you can see him showing off his so called 'pride'...with a pair of shorts...Lying comfortably and lazily on the armed chair… that's his favorite place. To read his unfinished paper. To watch some combat movie. And most of all to steal some refreshing nap...
Something about my dad that is so remarkably unforgettable..His smile….Although he was smiling, and yet he will not showed his big grin. Somehow apart from him, he will still kept his look of a Dad!!
I am afraid that all dad will have that thinking...to protect their 'look of a father'..
But when he smiled, his dimple was deep enough that you can actually notice it from afar....
Not like other dad... my dad never really pampered us like the spoiled child. No toys unless for certain reason. No extra pocket money. And no going out late.
My dad's rules are the only rules that played in my family. If he said no, and that's NO. And that will be the final bargain...and no point for us hovering around and asking for second consideration...
I used to be so envy of my little friends. They are so close to their dad's and some even like buddies of the life time. Some of them will be riding on their dad's back for a quick piggy ride. And the dad will eventually be the 'cow'. Sometimes, you also can see most of the dad's will scoop up their child lovingly when they are crossing the busy road.
And my dad?? All I have got is the stern face..
As much as I could recall, my dad never holds our hands when crossed the road.
Sometimes only he will held my mummy's hand...and we will be tagging along my mum's dress..
Looking up high and feeling envy of others kiddo looking at us beneath their dad's shoulder…
The stern face always seems to be with us wherever and whatever we do..Still remember when I failed my Math's. It was bad and even myself couldn't accept it..
And I have faced the music terribly..and my tears just couldn't stop flowing..
And since that incident, I was not allowed to watch any TV since then..
As I grew older, I always wonder what is behind my dad stern look…
One thing for sure, he loves my mum a lot…
Look at the picture and it means a thousand words….
LOL
As times flew by, and getting older, the real picture of my dad was getting crystal clear..We began to realize the charm of my dad from the little things that he had did for us was indeed the BIG thing we ever have…
My dad had always be the hero of our house..
Most of the furniture in my house were made by my dad..
The cupboard; which kept all of our belongings and clothes. The kitchen cabinet; where my Mummy will eventually cook all the yummy delicacies for all of us. And not forgetting the writing table…where my Daddy made just for the 3 of us, where we were striving so hard to finish our never ending homework. And of course, the beautiful dining table which gathered all of us for the dinner. Yup, ALL of the furniture was hand made and signed with love by my Dad…
Dad loves to takes us around. Life was hard as Pap was the only working man in the family… As a carpenter with limited wages, Pap make sure four of our siblings gets the most of him. His money, his time and his love. Even though time was hard, but he always makes sure that he spent some of the hard-earned money to take us for a short holiday though.
Ooopss… shamed of me!!I still remember there's a time where we saw a picture, where a small room can fit into
3 beautiful beds lovingly..
In a family of 3 bubbly daughters, my younger sister and I always end up slept on the floor...as 3 of us is sharing one tiny bedroom where it only feed a single bed. The next few week, my dad had managed to build 3 little comfortable beds for his 3 little princess, exactly like the picture we saw..
my sister and I were so excited for having our very first bed.. 
And whenever the house faces any breakouts, like changing the over-heated light bulb, fixing the dripping pipe, painting the old walls and repairing the cracking doors as well as adding the oil to the fan that make the furious noise, all these were never a problem to my dadWho needs a plumber or an electrician when you have ONE MIRACLE DAD in the house??
Another incident that touched my heart till now. Still remember it was my departure day to Sabah to further my studies. I called it a TEARY day. 
Some of my relatives, my ever-best friends and of course my beloved family were there to sent me off to the plane. Mummy was crying so hard, that I barely can see her eyes. For mummy, I am always the baby of the family. Mum keeps on reminding me to really take care of myself. Don’t’ do this… Remember to do that… Don’t you forget to….bla bla bla… and of course with tears choking her eyes and her throat.But Pap, he just stood there without a word. How could you Dad?? Is there no love for me at all?? Is it I am not worth for any concern at all?? My tears were flowing uncontrollably as well…having a thought that Pap does not care about me anymore??
It hurt even more when Pap tries to stop mum from talking to me. He just said, “Come on, just let her go it’s time now..or else the plane will take off!!”
He dragged my mum to aside while signaling me to be off by now…
With tears in my face, I wish I could ask my Dad about this: “Dad, is it I am so not worth for your care and attention?? I knew I am not your favorite child… I am not as smart as Sis, and I am not as adorable as Fong, but I am still your daughter, Dad!! How could you??”“Just GO!!”Dad still yelling…
As I turned around to have one last glance of my beloved friends and families, I saw something that I was not believed as well even though with my own eyes! This is not TRUE…
It was the tear of my beloved Pap. Pap was eventually shedding tears for this little black sheep of the family. His voice still trembling from within. And the tears just won’t stop!!
I was shocked. Really shocked!! Pap was eventually trying to be strong in order for me to make tracks with peace. He knew I have to pursue my studies. He does not want to weight me down with more moans and heartbreaking moment.Suddenly I found the long lost courage. I knew I have to be brave. Just as what Pap wants me to be!!
It was eventually the love that he showered to us all this while!!
The sweat that make the furniture in order for us to sleep soundly. The generosity that takes us to have all those remarkable holiday.
The ability to mend the broken gadgets just to ensure us to have a GREAT home. And of course, not forgetting the act of a father for his daughter to have enough of courage to leave her little home behind for studies…
Unfortunately, Pap, you were not here anymore in order for me to said thank you for the unconditionally love you showed to us all this while… but I really want you to know about this
Pap: Thank you for believing me… thank you for letting me knew that Dad’s love was not only meant for a piggy ride nor a loving face. We all missed you Dad… I did not dream of you anymore recently. Is it that you have long forgetting about us??
I knew you will not Pap, not even for a while. As you always tell us, we are the BEST asset you ever have. And I still believe that!
P/s: I love You, Pap. Now. And forever.I knew you can hear us from above. Shined on us. Just stay close with us ya…
Just a little song that I would like you to dedicated to you up there:
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say…
Now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away…
So far away…
Never had I imagined Living without your smile…
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive...
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day…Darling I never showed you…
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared...
And I miss the love we shared And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day…Although the sun will shine the same I'll always look to a brighter day…Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep…
You will always listen as I pray…And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way…
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day…
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day…
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say…
~ I Love You Dad ~
This most up-to-date hang out place was designed in a trendy way. They used the color of black and white. Lighten up with the crystal lamps really give a stylish look. 
The restaurant was indeed very generous as we can see that all of the guest for that night was given a butter roll served on the house. 
We have ordered this Emperor Prawns and Grilled Fish fillet serve up with Orange butter sauce. Comes with a salad and a Cordial drink, only cost RM16.4
And here’s the soursop cordial drink.
And here’s the main dish. The prawn was swathed in a popia skin and deep fried. Then was this grilled fish. I could taste a dash of turmeric powder. As the side dish, was this boiled potato with some olive oil and also some boiled vege like the broccoli, carrot and cauliflower. The special of this dish was the sauce itself. It was this butter cooked with some orange squash. Nice!!
Then was this kiddy meal that caught my attention. I thought it was meant for the kids, and when asked if we can ordered them or not, the waitress just grin to us….and said YES!!
The chef arranged the double decker of the meat paste and served with cheese, mayo and some green vege. The side dish was this fried wedges and a bunch of green salad.
As a surprise, this restaurant too has some live music where the boy and the gal was singing beautifully and joking endlessly. The singer was so sweet, where he dedicated this Cantonese song sing by Ah Niu – Chi Lam Cheng ko…
Then was this Golden Sharkfin. I guess that’s not much to explain as if you have gone through my previous blog you will indeed get a hint on what and how to make this delicious dish. All in all, Starview still beat the rest and served one of the BEST Sharkfin..LOL 
Next was this 5 Happiness. It was a typical Chinese starter where it was a plate of 5 combination of cold and hot side dishes. Well, let’s start from the left from clockwise. It was this Fried Mantis with Dried Chili. Smells and taste just as good as it looks!! Next, was this Deep Fried Fish cake with prawn. The fish paste was blended finely and added some chopped spring onion and prawn, then it was deep fried. Then, it was this Yam Ball. Chargrilled BBQ Chicken or better known as Char Siew were wrapped in this pastry made of Yam, and deep fried to conserve the crunchiness. The dish far behind was another signature dish of Starview, the Stir Fried Egg with Sharkfin. Chinese called this as Kwai Fa Chi. Kwai Fa was referring to this a type of flower. In the center of the plate was the cold dish, the Salad made of tomatoes and some leafy vege served with loads of Thousand Island sauce.
We were then served this simple dish of the vege. The Siu Pak Choy was cook tenderly with some chicken stock. To boost the flavor they put in some salted egg to make a beautiful finishing of the dish.
Next, was this, which I claimed interesting dish. Have you ever tried before the Peking duck?? Well, the conventional way was to wrap the popia skin with the finely sliced of the skin of the peking duck. Put in some cucumber stick and some spring onion and dipped with the special prepared sweet sauce. What happen to the meat then?? Normally, the chief will stir fried them with black pepper sauce. This restaurant was way too creative where they combined the western and the oriental serving of the duck. 
Over here, instead of popia skin, they served Mantau as the replacement. Instead of skin, they sliced thinly the skin and also the meat itself. Put on the crispy skin with some cucumber slices and spring onion, and then spread the mantau with some sweet sauce. The feeling was awesome as it was fluffy on the outside and springy on the inside.
On the center of the plate, you can see how interesting the chef prepared the meat of the duck. They shredded the meat and mixed with some sweet and sour chili sauce. These mixtures were then put on the pie tie. It was the meaty feeling that makes you fall in love with this dish!!
Then was this steamed Cod Fish. The fish meat was fresh and it tastes yummy too!! 
During birthday, not only they need Sau Pau but also this Longevity Noodles that hopes to bring long life for the particular person. This noodle was stir fried with lots of bean sprouts and some prawns and garnished with some egg. Surprisingly, this noodle was not oily at all!!
Last was this White Fungus with Longan and sweet dates.
Nevertheless, eating out at Starview never failed us!! If you looking some fine cooking of Chinese food, do drop by and taste them yourself.
